A Daughter's Note: Ignore This (If You're Busy)

Rabu, 07 Desember 2011

Ignore This (If You're Busy)

Once,
I was a girl, who loved someone
but didn't have a courage to speak the truth.

One day, I questioned my mind, "What am I supposed to do?"
"Listen to your heart."
I asked my friend, "What am I supposed to do?"
"The only one who knew it just you. But, don't ever hide those feelings, you must tell him, or you'll regret."

Then, I went to the bed, I prayed.

"Dear God,
thank You for always be here, with me, with my family.
Thank You for always protecting me.
Thank You for Your guidence,
for your kindness.
God, I'm afraid.
I'm having a doubt and I need You to help me.
I know that I must speak the truth, but I'm afraid.
Please, God, tell me if he is the right guy, then I'll tell him the truth.
But, if he's not, please,
Give me a sign to find the right one.
Thank You, God,
for listening me.
I'm Your child,
and I know, You'll give the best for me.
I love You, God,
thank You."

Then, I went to sleep.
I dreamt.

I saw a man.
He was quite and love to read.
He was kind.
Bla bla bla (:

The point was God gave me a sign,
through that dream,
and I finally make a new start.

I've found this guy of my dream.

The conflict began.

Me : What am I supposed to do, again?

My head : Just throw him away out of me.

Me : Yeah, you're right. I'm planning to do that.

My heart : But I still feel something if you meet him or think about him.

Me : Yeah, you're right too. So?

My head : Just rebuild your relation with the first guy.

My heart : No. Don't do that, you must think about my feeling, God gave you a dream about that guy, it's a destiny.

My head : Shut up..

My heart : No, you shut up..

Me : Hemm, maybe I'll look for someone else. Hahahahaha~ (I was full of happiness ^^)